Best Boy had just told me that he loved me. Did the fact that he said it for the first time ever while we were having sex negate the sentiment behind the words? Was he drunk and this was a case in which I should blame it on the alcohol? Did he really love me? […]
I had hoped to go out again with Stanford Man after our inspiring and enjoyable brunch, but much to my dismay, he needed to go out to Caliifornia for work. We emailed each other regularly, but it was clear this project was going to consume the majority of his time in the coming months. I […]
After Mr. Agency and I discussed what worked for both of us, I had thought that we had agreed to spend one night a week together. I didn’t realize until after we started tearing each other’s clothes off that one night a week didn’t involve him actually staying over my place. Since we had started […]
As I began to wonder if Best Boy and I could be more than just good friends with benefits, I tried to gauge where he was coming from at this point in our relationship. On Thanksgiving, I sent him a text to say: When I think of all the people I’m thankful for this year, […]
My energy and strength finally started coming back toward the end of the third round of chemotherapy. My iron counts were up after five transfusions, and I was able to get out of the house for short intervals. My first real outing came after Best Boy had spent the night. I awoke craving Caramel French […]
My ex-boyfriend, Philly Matt, and I see each other two or three times a year. In a typical month, we’ll text and email several times a week and talk on the telephone every other week. Even though we haven’t dated since 2006 or had sexual relations (using the definition of Former President Clinton) in four […]
I tried to contain my shock, as Mr. Agency walked toward me and gave me a kiss on the cheek. (For all intents and purposes, he had made the most minimal of effort to be there for me over the past four weeks. So, I was totally caught off guard when he showed up to […]
I accepted the fact that Mr. Agency wasn't interested in being in a committed relationship with me and focused on what would make me happy. I sent Best Boy the following text: What are your plans tonight? I’d love to see you…and not just for snuggling ;). Best Boy responded in less than a minute: […]
Best Boy was coming over my place for the first time in seven weeks. (I wasn't sure of his motivation for doing so, but I thankfully didn't have time to overanalyze the situation.) When he arrived, I introduced him to my friend, Carly. They exchanged pleasantries before she headed home. Once Best Boy and I were […]
I had let Best Boy know that we needed to take the “benefits” out of our “friends with benefits” arrangement. It surprised me that he cared more about me than he had led on, but my energy – in and out of the bedroom – was focused on my new relationship with Mr. Agency. Mr. […]